... ... 21042012

What is friend? Colleague = friend? schoolmate = friend? platoon mate = friend? What a friend is for? How much can a person give to friend? Do I have friend? What is family? A relationship based on DNA? A relationship based on love? Do I have family? Friend and family, what would we choose if only can have one of it??

ME 09082011

Just get back to home after watching 2 movies one and after, not feeling that good after having some conversation with colleagues about what ET comments about this year works performances up to date...
Seriously I'm damm (U*&^$$# about what ET had comments, what does means by feel disappointed by our performances...... I'm seriously thought that I'm really giving my 102% on my works, although last year is 105%... He seriously think I so stupid, works OT for free every day, although I still a bit stupid cause I still work for him most of the time...

ME 23012011

Today just feel so relax, except I am having diarrheoa, just feel happy... maybe only me in house today(landlords going to sister house for few days, older brother in JB, younger one working)...... Since BMT I start love to been alone, maybe I always like it, just that never had chance to be alone..... Or maybe because I just finish tidy up my room (also my both brothers room but they won't tidy it, just mess it)...... Don't know le, just feel so 'suang' today........

Still... Where... 31122010

Is the end of 2010...... When everyone are making a report about their achievement on 2010, and thinking about their 2011 resolution... How about me? Still slacking around? Dragging around? Blaming around? Cursing around? Envy around? ......
Where my courageous? My dream? My future? My money? Myself? My God? ...

罪... 01122010

人是多么愚蠢的存在
自己犯下的罪过
会遭来多么可怕的结果
这些他们都不会想到
所以才会轻易犯下罪过
一个人的罪恶
产生另外一个罪恶
而那份罪恶
又会
生出更可怕的罪恶...

HOW 12092010

How would you feel when you are not happy, but you keep put the smiling face in front of people......
How would you feel when you have to wear a mask for everyday, only will take down when no one is around......
How would you feel when all those people that previously have worst grade in exam are in university now bu not you......
How would you feel when people around you have a convo but not you......
How would you feel when people around you have a blissful family but not you......
How would you feel when people around you have at least someone be your guarantor for your uni loan but not you......
How would you feel when others are pursue their dream but you just able to have money to continue your life only......
How would you feel when you cannot put trust in any of the people around you......
How would you feel when you are the negative value in people around you......
How would you feel when you feel your existence is for others to know that they are blissful......
How.......

ME 13062010

Sunday, I think most people will like it. A day that no routine work need to be done, a day that can be with family and friends...... So most people would be quite enjoying this day. Sunday, a day that people suppose will be happy, so why am I felt so boring, so lost, so empty......